Hi, I am Cindi, a compulsive overeater. I will be the guest speaker on the WTS (Working the Steps) for the first quarter of 2018 on the TRG (The Recovery Group) website. I joined the Twelve Step program on January 1, 2002 and I am still here! Why? Because I am a food addict and I will always be a food addict. Only the Twelve Step program has ever given me freedom from food obsession and a weight loss that stayed off. I want to share with you my journey through the Twelve Steps and what they mean to me.
Now, an introduction to the first quarter of 2018 WTS!
I hope everyone had a good holiday. If you did not, then you join a cast of thousands for whom the holidays mean BINGE TIME! How many of us are looking forward to the New Year? To a new beginning? To, maybe, just maybe, a time when recovery might be ours?
What is recovery? Is it weight loss? Is it freedom from the obsession of food? Is it abstaining one day at a time? Is it following each day my Higher Power’s will for me? Is it working my way through all Twelve Steps? Yep, all of the above. Recovery is all of these things to me.
How many of us want to lose weight in the New Year? How many want to stop bingeing? Stop purging? Stop our compulsiveness with food and food behaviors?
In the Alcoholics Anonymous book, Bill W. and Dr. Bob visit the third prospective member in the hospital. They have a message for him that begins with this: “We have good news and we have bad news for you. The good news is that we have a way to stop drinking. The bad news is that we can never drink again.”
I have good news for you! There is a way to stop our compulsive eating. The bad news? We have to give up our excess food. It was bad news to me and probably something you do not want to hear either.
I was so far down into denial that I truly thought I could continue my compulsive overeating AND get thin. Hahahahaha! As if! I wanted so badly to be able to eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and in any amounts that I wanted. I also wanted to stop weighing 300 pounds. Somehow, I could not, for the life of me, see the conflict between those two ideas.
I will let you in on a secret. Abstinence and recovery did not come easily to me. It took me two and a half years of working the Twelve Step program of recovery before I was able to break through those walls of denial. However, on June 1, 2004, I was finally able to face the truth of my addiction and begin the path down the road of recovery.
What is my truth? I am an addict. I will always be an addict. If I want to be abstinent and if I want to be in recovery and to lose the excess weight, I have to be willing to do whatever it takes to have good recovery.
Is it worth it? OH MY YES! Freedom from the obsession with food! A true miracle in my life! A weight loss of 133 pounds! Sixteen years of recovery: spiritually, emotionally and physically!
Now the question is yours: What is your truth? Are you willing to give up the excess food One Day At a Time? Are you willing to go to any lengths to seek the recovery that you are entitled? If so, join me each week as we walk the path of recovery together as we work the Twelve Steps in the next twelve weeks! Together we really do get better!
Love in recovery,
The Twelve Steps