Step Two: "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."
"When we look with complete honesty at our lives, we see that where eating is concerned we have acted in an extremely irrational and self-destructive manner. Under the compulsion to overeat, many of us have done things no sane person would think of doing. We have driven miles in the dead of night to satisfy a craving for food. We have eaten food that was frozen, burnt, stale, or even dangerously spoiled. We have eaten food off of other people's plates, off the floor, off the ground. We have dug food out of the garbage and eaten it." (The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of Overeaters Anonymous, pg. 9)
Hello Dear Friends in Recovery,
In Step One we admitted the truth of our disease and the devastating effect it was having in our lives.
We became acutely aware of our powerlessness. This was the beginning of setting ourselves free. Thankfully, we are given direction for our next movement.... on to ....Step 2. This Step is about Hope.....there is a way out.
Regardless of what our belief or non belief is in a Power greater than ourselves we can keep this real simple by knowing that our ego, or personal little selves in comparison to the Cosmos is pretty darn powerless. Truth be told, there is a Power that is greater than ourselves, be it The God of Our Under-standing or the Principles of our 12 step program, which can lead us to not only an abstinent way of life, but if we follow through to the very end.......a higher consciousness and therefore, a truly whole, meaningful and serene life. Harmony is the truth of the universe and I want to experience that and not the ego world of human creation. And so, I work the program, using the tools and taking no half measures, for 'tis true (and I certainly know for sure) that "half measures avail us nothing." Step Two is the rallying point, the beginning of humility. Step One = I can't; Step Two = GOMU can.
I used food to deal with my feelings (even positive ones), fears and problems. I thought I would burst
if I just felt them as they were and instead I ate and stretched my skin and burst out of my clothes.
Insanity. I didn't know how to cope. Thankfully there is a way and our disease becomes the gift for acquiring this knowledge
Remember, Step Two is "came to believe," we don't need to be absolutely sure of anything, but as we
work the steps, we begin to see a difference in our lives that simply could not have happened of our own accord. I smiled as I typed this last sentence because my little self with the big ego would love me to let it do the thinking for me and believe in it, after all, it was powerful enough to wreck havoc in my life. But I know, from deep inside, differently. And that knowing, most assuredly, does not come from that wee ego driven self, I have called 'me.'
Step Two gives hope that the GOMU will be doing the hewing away of that which is not me and what will be found is what in my deepest heart and soul I have been looking for. I will be found.
I keep it simple. I take the steps and let the God of My Understanding do the rest....and that will be
my intro to the next step. for now:
Step Two Prayer:
I pray for an open mind
so I may come to believe
in a Power greater than myself.
I pray for humility
ad the continued opportunity
to increase my faith.
I don't want to be crazy any more.
"When, therefore, we speak to you of God, we mean your own conception of God. This applies, too, to other spiritual expressions which you find in this book. Do not let any prejudice you may have against spiritual terms deter you from honestly asking yourself what they mean to you. At the start, this was all we needed to commence spiritual growth, to effect our first conscious relation with God as we understood Him. Afterward, we found ourselves accepting many things which then seemed entirely out of reach. That was growth, but if we wished to grow we had to begin somewhere. So we used our own conception, however limited it was. We needed to ask ourselves but one short question. - "Do I now believe, or am I even willing to believe, that there is a Power greater than myself?" As soon as a man can say that he does believe, or is willing to believe, we emphatically assure him that he is on his way. It has been repeatedly proven among us that upon this simple cornerstone a wonderfully effective spiritual structure can be built."
-A.A. Big Book p.47 (emphasis is mine)
Questions to Ponder:
Question 1: How do you understand and experience the insanity of this disease?
Question 2: What does sane eating look like to you?
Question 3: Have you done any reading on Step Two? If so, what have you learned?
Question 4: Do you have a God of your understanding that comes from your very own heart and soul?
Question 5: Do I now believe, or am I even wiling to believe that there is a Power greater than myself?
If your answer to question 5 is yes, then Congratulations you have taken Step Two.
You don't have to pick up that first bite no matter what. You are not alone, we are all in this together.
Feel free to contact me using the email below or by calling me.
“Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.”
- Emily Dickinson
The Twelve Steps
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