During the last week, I helped the students in the disabilities ministry at my church and others may see me, but I give service out of love. The students express great joy and gratitude when somebody just simply says ďhiĒ to them.
I have worked through my resentments and when they come up (they most definitely do!!), I work on the resentment as soon as I can. My most common technique is to pray for the other person and for God to heal the hurt and resentment in my mind.
I used to be a very bitter and angry person. Other times, I would not express anger when it was appropriate to do so. I handle anger the same as resentments.
Iíve learned to restrain my tongue, pen, and email. I used to send emails with flames shooting out from the sides. I do not do that anymore.
Iíve made my amends. However when the need for one comes up, I make it right away. When making amends, I take the attitude of cleaning my side of the street only and I do not expect anything from the other person.
I am willing to do anything that comes to my attention to maintain victory over compulsive overeating. The other defect I had to live with is procrastination and not being able to get angry when I should.
Iíve had people who would give me wise cracks when making amends. I ignore the remarks because my mission is to clean my side of the street. If the other person chooses to be a jerk, it is not my problem.
Love In Recovery,
The Twelve Steps