I stood up to my wife and held my ground rather than allow her to talk down to me. I know I do not have to do everything she asks “on the double.”
I am grateful for so many things, I will plug up the loop. I am grateful for God because He always shows up when I need him. I am far from perfect from turning things over to him. But as time passes, my faith in Him grows.
The 12 steps taught me to trust God and that His way is actually the best way for me although I have a problem seeing it that way at first. I must always trust, no matter what.
I had to learn that humility does not mean to eat humble pie. I am not supreme over others and I am not beneath everybody either. I am equal in this world playing out the part that God assigned to me.
I have humbly asked God to remove things that were wrong about me so many times and God always shows up. My part is not to take it back.
I used to never have enough money. I always thought everybody always had more than me.
I learned to love all others as God’s children, even those who are jerks. I seldom place self-reliance first. However, I must always do the footwork.
Living a life of humility means that the chaos has no place in my life. Many things I have no control of. Although some things done are outright wrong, I still have no control. God is the one in charge and when I give the problems to Him, they are not longer my problems.
I am one who made very few demands on others out of fear of their reactions. I have not made unreasonable demands, however I have been in unreasonable situations where demands should have been made.
God has taken away my constant fear of financial insecurity.
The 7th step prayer means so much to me because it is where I ask God to come into my house and to clean house. My experience is that not only God is eager to clean house, the things of my past are forgiven by His son’s death on the cross.
Love In Recovery,
The Twelve Steps