WTS ~ WORKING THE STEPS

2009

STEP ELEVEN
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact
with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will
for us and the power to carry that out.



ESSAY

If the way God speaks to us is through our intuition, then prayer must be the statement of what we think we want or need, and meditation is seeking to see how that resonates within us, in our intuition.

While some people believe in God in the usual sense and others do not, this minimal statement seems to me to deal with the spiritual and human side of the equation. What we need, as addicts, is to stop listening all the time to our insane “rational” self, and start listening to our intuition. Classically, the intuition has been called the voice of God within us. The intuition may not always be seem logical in its advice, but it will be found over time, I believe, to be seen to have an inner logic that is greater than our own ideas.

What fills us with awe? What fills us with wonder? Even scientific research depends more on intuition than the scientific method, as usually stated. All great advancements in science came about because someone had an intuition about something, and then check it out. Imagination and creativity are as important as testing.

Some, perhaps most, will have no trouble with the concepts of prayer and meditation. Others will need to act “as if” on this one, and see that it works.

I personally do not worry about the power to carry out God’s will. I believe that if God wants me to do something, there will be a way for it to happen. What God wills is something that seems to me to always go with the flow of the energy of the universe.

There are many ways to pray, many ways to meditate. Some of us try to go to a sacred space. Some pay attention to dreams. There are guided and guiding images. There are mandalas, wheels, drums, fire, many things that help us. This suggests that if we are not sure of exactly how to proceed here, we might seek out someone who seems to have found their way, and seek to learn from them. We may seek out a guide, a mentor, a spiritual director, especially people who are familiar with the Steps.

I read recovery literature, meditations, and allow what is being said to reverberate within me. That reverberation seems to come back to me with the message that is intended for me. I also use prayer as the means to bring something into consciousness, so that it can be treated in the light of the divine. This, by the way, is how I deal with my character defects!

Love,

John

Flowers


STEP ELEVEN QUESTIONS
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact
with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will
for us and the power to carry that out.


1. Share with us some of the ways you find yourself improving your conscious contact with the God of your understanding. I list several, but there are many.

2. Are you comfortable with the idea that intuition is a powerful voice which helps us to find and to live into God’s will for us? In what ways are you comfortable or uncomfortable?

3. What fills you with awe, with wonder? Do you find a spiritual depth and satisfaction in these things (or this thing)?

4. Are you willing to form the habit of making time daily for this kind of spiritual activity? What would help you? What hinders you?

5. It has been said that addiction drives out spirituality. I think that spirituality therefore drives out addiction. In what ways do you agree or disagree with this statement? 6. Does the word God bother you, or are you okay with it?

Love,

John

Flowers


STEP ELEVEN ~ MY ANSWERS
Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact
with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will
for us and the power to carry that out.


1. I have already mentioned in the Essay several of the ways I pray and meditate. I have tried many forms, and some have been fruitful for me, and others have not. One thing that has helped me a great deal has been guided meditations, which, of course, require someone to be the guide. But it has given me much wisdom and comfort.

2. I was not always comfortable with listening to intuition. The strange thing about this is that I am a highly intuitive person. I used my skills in great part to second guess dangerous situations and people, a skill I acquired growing up. But I learned how to use this precious gift to listen to what God was saying, and that has made a world of difference for me.

3. Beauty in any form, the whole creation, people, love, kindness, truth. These are the characteristics of the God of my understanding. Where these things are, I usually find God lurking around.

4. I spend some time each day with a discipline of prayer and meditation. This usually happens twice a day, once in the morning after the intravenous infusion of caffeine brings me back to the land of the living, and again in the evening at bed time, when I also do Step 10.

5. This has been my experience, before and during my own recovery.

6. I’m okay with the word “God,” but I don’t know if my understanding is the same as that of others. I just know what is working for me, and that is enough.

Love,

John




 
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