I am a literal person. When I hear something or read something I take it as it is written or said. I donít see any gray area. If you ask me a question I give you an answer, no matter if you are merely making noise and do not expect an answer. You asked. I thought you wanted an answer
Where is this going? I took Step 1 and said I couldnít handle things. I took step 2 and said I believed in God. Now in Step 3 I was to say God would take care of me no matter what. God left a lot to be desired where my life around food was concerned.
Where was this God of Mine after my kids were born and I wanted to loose weight? I was left alone with my own methods: drink a lot of water, or eat certain foods. God could not take credit for how hard I worked each Monday as I started a new diet that lasted 3-4 days. I found myself alone to face another life changing event with only the trusty comfort of food to walk me through. Turning to God was not new for me. Trusting God to do the right thing by me was new.
Step 3 says, "Made a decision". I can make decisions. I do that all day long. I decide what to wear, what to do and especially what to eat. I could make a decision. Next they asked me to turn my will. What is my will? Does that mean I could no longer make a decision? Didnít I make my decisions based on my will to get things done? Well I let that slide for the moment. Now my Life was to be turned over to God. I was frustrated because I did not understand what was being said.
Someone told me I only had to make a decision to turn my will and my life over to God. Just make a decision. That was all that was asked of me. Turn it over to God. I thought about that for a long time. What would happen then? How would I handle life if I was not in charge?
Today I thank GOMU for the willingness to take this step a little bit at a time. I made the decision to turn my will and my life over to God. Then I proceeded to do much of the same insane stuff. God has given me a stubborn streak that only he can break. Slowly I learned that the decision was mine. The result was in His Hands. I let go little by little. I prayed much and learned the 3rd step prayer, which has become part of my morning rite.
It takes courage to make a change in habits that have been around for a lifetime. It takes courage to make a decision to let go of what makes you, you and it takes courage to do it freely with no fear of the outcome. Take courage, step up and take Step 3.
Step 3 Prayer: God I offer myself to thee, to build with me and to do with me as Thou Wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy Will Always. Page 63, AABB.
STEP THREE ~ QUESTIONS
Do you want to do Step 3 but find you cannot accept God in your life? Please do not turn from this session because you and I are on different pages where God is concerned. AS YOU UNDERSTAND HIM is just that.
"We found that as soon as we were able to lay aside prejudice and express even a willingness to believe in a Power greater than ourselves, we commenced to get results, even through it was impossible for any of us to fully define or comprehend that Power,..." Page 47 AABB.
1. Share you fears or hopes on this matter.
2. Have you made this decision, yet find abstinence is still eluding you? Does this frustrate you? Share your feelings or your thoughts.
3. If abstinence is now part of your life share your feelings or your thoughts.
4. If you have already worked Step 3 please share with us your experience.
Donít be afraid to take this step. Your life is worth the effort.
Yours in ESH