Dear Fellow Travelers:
Step 10 reads:
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
My name is Donna and I am a compulsive eater.
For me, I use Step 10 to end each day. As I work my Program, and as I allow God to remove my character defects, I learn to listen to His voice and to make changes in my life.
When I am working my Program, there are sometimes thoughts that come to me during the day, and I am prompted within by my HP - or my conscience, if you prefer - that something I am doing, or an attitude that I have is wrong. I consider this my HP at work, removing those character defects, as I have asked Him to. If I begin each day with my Third Step Prayer ("Lord, I am now willing that You should have all of me...") and come to the place where I have begun my Step 7 work and Step 9 contacts, I will begin to be aware of changes in my life and in my character. I will be able to see myself grow, or just be moving through a day and suddenly realize "Hey! I didn't _____ today!" or "Hey! I was able to talk to ____ without resentment!"
Yet, it is good, as we all live busy lives, to end each day with a period of reflection and to use Step 10 as a barometer of each day's events. To look at them through Program eyes, and to identify new areas we might need to add to future Step 4, 6 or 8 lists. Some of them may need to be shared with our sponsor. Some may be able to be dealt with immediately; for example, if I realize that I have wronged one of the people that I live with, I might go to that person right away and ask for forgiveness and make whatever amends are needed. Rather than accumulate wrong actions, as I had to wade through during my initial inventory and Step 6 & 8 lists, I can deal with the situation then and there. I can ask God for help to remove the defect, and to approach whoever I need to talk to; to make amends.
It is all part of becoming a Program person. To make our recovery more than a "diet"... to make it a way of life. If we merely change our eating habits without correcting the behaviors which have become a byproduct of our addiction, we will find ourselves returning to our addictive behaviors... sometimes with disastrous results. It is more constructive to allow the steps to unfold in our lives, and to allow God to change us as He will. If we truly allow God to work in our lives; if we have truly worked step 7 and sincerely desire the removal of our character defects, we will discover those moments on a daily basis: becoming aware of an action that we must take (or, that God has taken for us!) to help us move toward what we are now bedoming. These Step 10 "moments" allow us an insight, throughout the day and at the end of each day, into how far we have come and to where we might next be going
May God bless each of you as you discover its changing power, in your life
Donna, food addict
1. How do I continue to work my Program even during those times when I feel it isn't working or I'm not recovering quickly enough?
2. What are the stumbling blocks which can keep me from growing in my Program today?
3. What do I see as the purpose of step 10?
4. What is my attitude regarding honesty about my problems and continued surrender to a Power greater than myself?
5. In what ways am I becoming grateful for this Program?
Blessings to all,
Donna, food addict