Step 10 Essay
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
There is one sense in which the big inventory and all that follows through making amends, is big simply because it represents a lifetime to doing life with insanity. On the first pass, there is often so much stuff.
Now, a good Twelve Stepper will work the steps through thoroughly once a year at least. And each time some sizable chucks of garbage will turn up. But never so much as the first time, in most cases, I would think.
We had to make up for a lot of lost time.
Step Ten invites us to live day by day with the process, keeping everything up to date in the moment. In order to do this, we have to develop a habit of looking at ourselves every day, taking stock of what is going on in our lives, and taking positive steps to keep things on course. When we make amends as things come up, we are not left with huge lists over and over, so often of the same things again and again. And living becomes a much nicer experience.
Most people I know of take some time each day to reach out to HP, then with that guidance, to look at themselves as they really are. At least, we do it as much as we are able.
Much earlier I mentioned that character is formed out of habits. Some habits we need to break. Some we need to learn. And one of the chief of these is consciousness. Being aware, particularly of ourselves and what is going on with in our people connections. Doing the work of becoming conscious may not stop you from raiding the fridge at first, but in time, it will. Working to become conscious may not stop us from flying off the handle at first, but in time, it will. The whole of the steps are so interrelated.
The key then, is to start by learning the new habits until they override the old ones. A sort of print over, if you will. Daily is mentioned in both this step and the next. Now is the moment in which we live, one day at the time.
Step 10 Questions:
1. Do you take time to meditate on your program each day? This would include getting in touch with your HP, with yourself, and with your relationships to the others in your life. If not, what is keeping you from it?
2. Are you willing to make amends for things as they come up? Or is it more your pattern to put these things off?
3. We all know how hard it is to break a bad habit, and when that habit has become a compulsion, we can no longer break it by ourselves. To work this step, we have to admit constantly that we are at best making progress, but we aren't perfect yet. The main question is, can you be patient enough to allow your HP and you fellow sufferers get through to you? Are you willing to wait until the miracle really does happen?
4. A philosophic question. Can you see the relationship between breaking the compulsive habit of insane eating, and keeping the junk and poison out of your own life? Share your thoughts. This is a little essay for you!
Be Realistic, Plan for a Miracle!