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My name is Shana and I am a compulsive overeater. I am grateful to have found the OA program of recovery and part of my program is sharing it with others.
Please note that previous questions are already up on the web site and can be found at http://recovery.hiwaay.net/questions/index.html
B.) Discuss why for the true compulsive overeater there is no possiblity of controlled eating.
It is on page 22, the second paragraph, that I was first informed, "There was, they said, no such thing as the personal conquest of this compulsion by the unaided will." I can now read between the lines and understand that the key here are the words, "...by the unaided will." If any personal conquest is to be made, it is to be with a Higher Power leading the way. Higher Power could and would prop up my unaided will if I only asked. I came to understand a Higher Power was an absolute necessity if I wanted to stay on this journey to physical, spiritual and mental health.
In the same paragraph, "Few indeed were those who, so assailed, had ever won through in singlehanded combat. It was a statistical fact that alcoholics almost never recovered on their own resources, etc." For me, this means that I have no possibility of controlled eating guided by own unsteady willpower. Does this mean that I have to follow a particular food plan? Yes, but it is one of my choosing (with my sponsor's help) that eliminates certain foods that are hard for me to be around without binging on them. It's better that I just don't get involved with them, and yet I have the serenity (most of the time) to be around them. But, then again, I love alot of foods that are necessary to my health. You see, I love food and I love to eat alot of it! So, I had to come up with a food plan that limits my intake as well, and allows me to eat with dignity and serenity. I could never do this alone!! When it came to food, I was never my own best friend. I wheedled the last drop out of any excuse to eat something I "wanted"...not needed, of course. The word "BALANCE" came to mean something I had never noticed before; never allowed into my self-pitying soul.
So, yes, there is no possibility of controlled eating when left to my own devices, but with Higher Power's help I can control my eating one day at a time. It has become effortless (for today) because I am living on another plane; I do not want to abuse myself today, and I can't explain why a year ago I did, except to say that when I asked my Higher Power for help with the humility of a person who was going down for the count, God did for me what I could never do for myself... and I think the key is that this timeI truly allowed the good in.
Love in recovery,
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