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My name is Shana and I am a compulsive overeater. I am grateful to have found the OA program of recovery and part of my program is sharing it with others.
Please note that previous questions are already up on the web site and can be found at http://recovery.hiwaay.net/questions/index.html
B.) Discuss and reflect upon what sort of thinking dominates when the compulsive overeater repeats the desperate experiment of trying just one bit= e?
So, the crux of the question is, "...what sort of thinking dominates..." me when I am face to face with the idea that I will be able to just eat this one piece and then I will be done; finished, back on track. On these pages I read that it is a type of thinking that is barren of fit spiritual conditioning; when I let my spiritual life go by the wayside for more "important" things. I'm sure we can all fill in the blanks when it comes to what these "important" things are. Perhaps lying, cheating, work obsession, anger, resentment, and more.
Not counting the years before OA, because then I was not educated as to the games I played with food, I pushed the envelope over the edge many, many times in the "hope" that I could, just this once, have the control I desire over this insidious disease. In fact, I would rationalize so well the thought that this time would be different that I mistook my will for HP's many times. Yes, alcohol is different in that you give it up or you don't give it up; with food, we have to dip in each day with great care and ask Higher Power to help us honor our choices and keep our minds clear. But, in whatever way I have to walk this tightrope I still must remember that my disease may be different...but the results will be the same if I don't.
On page 35, a man named Jim is mentioned. He had everything in the world to live for; good home, family, and business. He didn't start drinking until he was thirty-five. Within five years he was a violent alcoholic. You can read his story, as it will be of great interest to you. The one thing I want to point out about Jim is that he did very well when he found the rooms of AA; he quickly got his life back...only to lose it all again in repeated attempts to find his balance. Why? Because he had failed to enlarge his spiritual life.
My story is the same. In fact, the first thing to go is my spiritual contact with my Higher Power on a daily basis. The first thing to go is my knowledge of my HP's will and the willingness to carry that out. The first thing that happens is that I become "deaf" to the truth of who I am; then, well, the rest is history. So, the answer to this question is that the thinking that dominates when the coe repeats the desperate experiment of trying just one bite is the loss of spirituality.
Love in recovery,
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