Being Loved by God, Defects and All

Dear God,

Good morning and such a nice way to start the day, talking to the power of the universe. Most of the time I don't give that a second's thought, maybe that is the right approach. For so many years my heart was closed to You, because I felt I was not worthy to even think of Your existence. How could someone as foul minded, mean, and at times vicious, come to You for anything? I'm so sorry for wasting all that precious time, what extreme grandiosity on my part.

Everytime my kids do something stupid or inconsiderate it at first hurts me, and then forgiveness sets in. If I am capable of this, then how much more are You able to forgive and love me because of my defects, not in spite of them. Out of all my tiny knowledge this one fact stands above all, my God is one of forgiveness and hope. Thanks. After telling so many that You will forgive and grant the grace of abstinence on any who ask for it, why did I consider myself unworthy? Grandiosity set in, and I began to do Your job. Well, You may have it back. What fools we mortals be.

I'm still basking in the glow of the Dallas convention and looking forward to the region six convention this November, unless the doctor okays a trip to Tahiti with the woman You sent to run my life. SIGH!! Life is good, too good sometimes. Perhaps I need to remember that all of this comes from You, all of my life, good and not so good. So far today I have not eaten compulsively, been mean to anyone, had any nasty thoughts, no resentments activated. Pretty good day. Now I'm getting out of bed so You take over.

The knowledge of and power to do Your will would be nice and is expected. Please watch over my family, friends, fellow loopies, those who still diet and as usual the people I don't like, none of whom read this. Perhaps there will be a big bunch of folks at the "ASK IT BASKET" meeting at eight tonight in the chat room. Thy will not mine be done.

And Why Not?
The Recovery Group

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