MY LIFE


Danny's Letters to God
GIANT CHOCOLATE EGG


Dear God,

What is this? Another test?? Its almost 11:30 a.m. and my phone has not stopped ringing. Started at 8 a.m. with Gramps, that as usual was such a nice present, thanks. He is a good and spiritual man, at least I think so. The rest of the calls went down hill after him. Its the same old cast, crying the same old tales of why me, poor me and give me. I was, I'm sure, not too gentle with them as the answers they received were to go to You and do as told. They won't but it gets me off the hook. Which brings me to the EGG.

An old and well meaning friend presented me with a two pound Godiva Chocolate Egg he had received from a business associate and he is allergic to the stuff.

Not wanting to offend (sounds like a set up) I accepted the egg and into the fridge it went. All the while thinking the grandbabies will enjoy this. Bullshit. You and I and anyone reading this knows that. Somehow it was forgotten until I heard its lovely alto voice singing my praises. Who could resist Godiva, Queen of Food. Once again into the breach rode the four hundred in the form of, yes, the woman You sent to run my life.

The EGG whose very existence she knew was life threatening to me disposed of same and while refusing to tell me of the manner (she does not want me to cry) in which it was removed has spent an inordinate amount of time in the bathroom this morning. Hmmmmm. The GOMU at work again. Thanks.

Somehow the folks who make themselves suffer so about regaining lost abstinence need to be reminded that no substance abuser ever relapsed if they were spiritually fit. Relapse begins not with the temptation but with the lack of humility produced by being too busy to pray and meditate and hold out a hand to those still suffering. Relapse is a foregone conclusion for those who do not give away that which has been so freely given to them. How utterly selfish.

My meager resources are unable to fight this disease so Your strength is required to do Your will as it is revealed to me today. Watch over my family, friends, fellow loopies, those who still diet and the people I don't like. Have I told You lately that I love You.




And Why Not?
Danny
The Recovery Group





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