My meeting this morning had a topic from the Big Book, revised for OA. It said:
"Practically speaking, (OA) members never "graduate." Rather, they consider themselves (Compulsive Overeaters, Bulimic, and Anorexics) for life, even if they have not taken a (bite) in 30 years. In this sense, OA is like a church. It cannot, by definition, be outgrown. It is a lifelong process."
It is tough to swallow that I am never going to be magically cured but I am dealing with it. I have always known that this program is a lifelong way of living. It is just a hard thing to admit dependency on anything, even something as great as OA and recovery. It took me years to figure out that I would need my anti-depressants and mood stabilizers for the rest of my life, so I am sure this is going to take some getting used to.
I find myself getting more and more comfortable in the rooms and sharing with others in OA. At this point, I can't imagine my life without my meetings, my literature and the fellowship I have found here. So it isn't all that scary to think that I need it for the rest of my life. It might actually turn out to be pleasant.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim