DAY SIXTY SEVEN ~ MEETING SIXTY SEVEN
PEOPLE PLEASING
This was a timely topic for me today. I received a card from my grandfather for my birthday. It was a very nice card and then you get to the inside where it said something to the effect that he made a wish for his birthday and hopes it comes true before he dies. Then it said something about that I would know what it was without him saying. Well, of course I know and talk about a guilt trip. He wants me to "make up" with my mother and just sweep everything under the carpet.
This card threw me into a tailspin. Even though I had made up my mind weeks ago exactly how things were going to be and I had resolved it within me and with God, I started second-guessing myself. Now, I know I did this because of how important this man has been throughout my life and I want to make him happy. I know better. I know that nothing I do will be enough and I am not going to conform to what he wants to keep the peace or to make him happy. If I do that, I am compromising my happiness and my children's safety, which I refuse to do. I deserve to be happy and they most certainly deserve to be safe.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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