DAY SIXTY THREE ~ MEETING SIXTY THREE
PRIDE
Today's meeting had a topic from For Today, Page 183. It said:
"Let me take steps now to face my defect of pride and use it as an incentive to grow. Then I can be free of competitiveness and share in the joy of someone else's virtues and strengths."
One of the biggest faults I have found within myself is the need for everything of mine to be "more than" anyone else's. If someone is going through a rough time, my rough time and my experience has to be worse. I even sometimes try to convince people of this. What is this going to solve for anyone? It most likely only makes the other person feel like I am minimizing their problem or their pain. It makes me feel worse about myself when I see what I am doing (and I always do, whether I deny it or not).
Being pregnant right now, when I hear that others are pregnant, I want to be happy for them. I really do, but then won't that take some of the focus off of me? I am not the be all and end all to everyone's life. I am not the center of the universe and the sooner I learn this, the better. I would love to just be happy for others and to just comfort them. I am getting better in this as far as just saying enough and not too much but I still feel like I am "more than" inside.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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