DAY SIXTY ONE ~ MEETING SIXTY ONE
FORGIVING
Today's meeting had a topic from Voices of Recovery, page 232. It said:
"I can forgive myself for making mistakes and ask for my Higher Power's help to move on and do the daily footwork of this program, letting go of expectations and outcomes."
I am very, very, very hard on myself in all areas of my life and making mistakes in my program is no different. Sometimes life just gets in the way or I guess I allow it to get in the way and I don't use all the tools each day that I normally would. Forgiving myself for this is very difficult for me because of my perfectionism. I wish that expectations and outcomes were not a part of my thinking, but they are and I just continually have to ask for help from my HP to remove them for me.
It is certainly not only the program that I make mistakes in. I have done so many things that I am not proud of that have been brought to light by my fourth step, which I just finished (thank God). My sponsor recently sent me this wonderful meditation on forgiveness that is supposed to work on forgiving yourself as well as others. I have read it through and am hoping to try it tonight. Along with prayer to God to help me with this, I don't know any other way to take it easier on myself.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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