DAY SIX ~ MEETING SIX
Progress Not Perfection
I am so angry with myself all of the time because I expect perfection from myself and certainly don't ever get it. This makes for a bitter person inside and affects every area of my life. I have to let go of that need for perfection and just work on the progress part of recovery. I had two cookies for breakfast this morning, so instead of just having my breakfast and going on with the day, I skipped it. This tends to be a recipe for disaster for me. I usually end up eating way too much later in the day and considering that my husband is taking me to dinner tonight, there is such a huge potential for problems. You see I wasn't perfect this morning. I had the cookies, so I had to punish myself and not have my breakfast, which sets me up for the disaster.
This doesn't only affect my eating and my recovery. It affects how I do everything. I feel this need to be perfect. No one else expects this of me, so why do I? Why am I so very hard on myself, harder than others could ever imagine being? This is one topic to really ponder.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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