DAY FIFTY FIVE ~ MEETING FIFTY FIVE
PRAYER
The meeting today had a topic from the AA Big Book, page 87. It said:
"We ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no request for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped. We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends. Many of us have wasted a lot of time doing that and it doesn't work."
All of my life, I only prayed for myself and what would be best for me. Or at least, what I thought would be best for me. I never realized how selfish I was with my praying until I joined the program. Bad things would happen and I would beg God to save me from them happening again or beg him to change them. I would literally be in tears, but I was only worried about myself and my own selfish wants and needs.
Since coming to this program and praying for others, I am finding so much more serenity in my life. It was even mentioned to me today by my husband whom I am not getting along well with, that it shows in my face that I am calmer lately. This has to be the work of God. It sure isn't from me because in the past I had tried everything I could think of to help myself. The big difference in my relationship with God right now is that I trust Him. I know that He knows what I need, so I can freely pray for everyone else, not worrying about my own needs. He's got it covered.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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