DAY FOUR ~ MEETING FOUR
Resentments
I went to a meeting this morning (first time at this one). I found myself feeling so connected to one woman there. She has been in the program for over 20 years and I am sincerely thinking of asking her to be my sponsor. I'll see how our relationship progresses. She is the kind of woman I would have wanted my mom to be. Just amazing! And, she was just fired from her job yesterday so she has a ton of time on her hands (her words, not mine). She even lives on the same road I do, just quite far up the road. HP was working once again.
I sat there in that room and talked about the most painful issues in my life for almost 45 minutes and these women understood! They believed me about my abuse; they cared at first sight. My mother can't even care after 29 years. We really talked a lot about resentments and how to relieve them. They directed me to the AA Big Book, pages 550-553, especially the next to the last paragraph of page 552, where it talks about praying for the person you have resentments against even if you don't mean it. What a chore that would be, but I am really going to try. Something has to help me have this pain, anger and fear relieved from my heart and my soul. I will try just about anything, so what do I have to lose? Once again, I am looking to HP, God, to help me. This program is true spirituality at work again and again and again.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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