DAY THIRTY NINE ~ MEETING THIRTY NINE
EMOTIONAL TRIGGERS
I just love this meeting when I can make it there. I have to tell you that the fellowship is just fabulous. In fact, I finally opened my mouth and asked a lady that I admire there if she would like to go to lunch after next week's meeting. And guess what? She didn't laugh at me and it didn't kill me to ask her!
As for emotional triggers for me, every reason that I eat has to do with an emotion. It is hardly ever because I am really hungry because I don't let myself get that way. It really doesn't matter what emotion it is. Even happiness (which isn't felt very often) can make me eat. No, wait a minute, the emotions don't make me eat. I eat all on my own…I allow the emotions to get to me and I choose to eat. (I'm getting better, huh?)
Surprisingly, anger is not the biggest emotional trigger for me. I tend to go and throw myself into some kind of work when I am angry. No, the one that really seems to get me is being bored. I think that is part of the reason why I have thrown myself into service positions with such abandon. I want to keep myself busy so that I won't pick up that first bite. Now, I'm not saying that's the answer, because it certainly hasn't worked perfectly for me. But now, I am finally starting to be able to recognize when it is that I feel the need to eat and what is really going on inside of me to cause these thoughts.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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