DAY THIRTY EIGHT ~ MEETING THIRTY EIGHT
DEFENSE
The topic today comes from the AA Big Book page 43. It said:
"Our defense must come from a Higher Power."
Having tried everything else, this would seem to be the only answer left, right? Well, I am still having the tendency to fall into my old ways of thinking that I can control situations, whether it is me or other people. Some days, I seem to think I can do anything, control anything. I can't do it…I have to keep turning everything over to God. Not on a daily basis, but on an hourly or a per minute basis if needed.
I had a friend on an email loop tell me what she does and I am sure she won't mind me sharing it here. She has a box that she puts all her worries in to give to God. Added to this, one of the ladies from my f2f meeting said that she did the same for years. She would write down on a sticky note exactly what it was she needed to give away to God and put her initials on it, because her whole family was using the box. She also said that if she started to think about it again and was not completely able to let it go that she had to take that thing back out of the box. No cheating! Weeks down the road, she would go look at these things and sometimes they would seem so silly or just be unimportant any longer. She could see how the box really worked in giving things up to God.
I am going to start this for my children and I starting today. Maybe the actual physical piece of paper with the words on it will help me to really give it to God. And when I go back in a few weeks to check out what is in there and some of it (maybe all of it) is gone, I can really see that God is working in my life.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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