DAY TWENTY TWO ~ MEETING TWENTY TWO
"I don't have to do things perfectly, just to the best of my ability."
I am learning that in the midst of me trying to be perfect I am usually only making things much more difficult than they need to be. I feel like the best of my ability is perfect, or should be perfect anyway. I don't feel like anyone, especially myself, will accept me as anything less than perfect. This is why I can't accept myself yet and why I don't let a whole lot of people in my life. I am afraid to disappoint them, as I have everyone all my life. Or maybe that is just something I perceived, but they never really corrected the thought.
My self-esteem is about as low as it could get and has been for quite awhile. I tend to believe that I brought most of this on myself because I expect so much out of me. No one could live up to the perfect picture I would like to see and I certainly can't live up to what I expect of me. The only way for me to dig myself out of this pit and be able to accept myself is to let go of some of my expectations of myself.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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