DAY NINETEEN ~ MEETING NINETEEN
STEP ONE
Admitting I am powerless over food isn't my problem. I can readily admit that. It is admitting that I am powerless over others that really tries me. I am trying so hard in the program right now and the people close to me don't seem to notice my struggles or my progress. It is obviously slow going and I am never going to be perfect. (I need to digest that one!)Sometimes, I want to give up and start trying to control everyone and everything around me, but I know where that will get me. I don't want to be in that place again, so I need to develop some patience, even though others don't seem to have much patience with me.
As for my life being unmanageable, heck yes it is in every aspect. If I wasn't eating, I was spending or drinking or having sex with people I don't even want to think about. I have never been able to manage or control my life. It's easy to see that when you look at the path of destruction I have carved for myself.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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