DAY ELEVEN ~ MEETING ELEVEN
LETTING GO
When I think of letting go, I think of my controlling and perfectionist behaviors. Whew! What a miracle it would be to just be able to let everything go and send it to God. I try. I ask him to take control. I probably stop 30 times a day and say "Thy will be done." I know deep down in my heart, I am not ready to let go of the control. It's my safety net of sorts. If I give up control, I am leaving myself exposed and vulnerable. Because of my past, vulnerable is one thing I definitely don't want to be.
The problem here lies in the Serenity Prayer "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change." I cannot change other people, how they feel or what they do. So, every day, I ask God to take control of my life and to help me not try to control others. What I need to start doing is to ask Him for the willingness to give up control. Maybe that is where I should have started in the first place.
Until tomorrow ~
I'm Kim
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